| Jul. 27th, 2006 @ 01:57 pm The beginning... |
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Current Mood:  rejuvenated
Where to begin? I guess I'll start by explaining why I'm starting this journal.
My user name is LessPixie2Luv. Ever been on MySpace, or an online dating service? I'm sure most people have. Ya know how when you fill out some personal information on yourself, under the "Body Type" catagory, they always have a nice way of saying "fat" or "heavy" or "overweight"? Like I've seen "Some extra baggage" "On the plus side" and my favorite "More to Love". Well, honestly, I'm sick of having to select that option.
Don't get me wrong, I LOVE being loved, I just wish there was less of me TO love.
In March of 2006, I set out on a journey to lose weight. I'm only 20 years old, and I weighed 228 lbs, at only 5'2! It was time. I decided to use the Weight Watchers program, mostly because my health insurance offered 3 Months Free.
I stayed faithful to that program for 3 months and found great success. I ended up losing 31 lbs!! Now finally under 200lbs, I was more then ready to keep going.
A lot of personal things happened, good not bad, and I ended up finding myself the opportunity to get out of the Black Hole state I was living in (That would be Worcester, MA) and move down to Virginia to start a new, better life. I was all for it and packed up and moved within 2 weeks.
When I got here, I was prepared to stay on program, but I didn't. I found that the people around me did not eat like I did, and I started to follow their patterns. Eating out everynight, eating cheeseburgers and french fries, greasy quesadilla's, and I started drinking soda again, something I had given up completely.
Please, don't think I am blaming those people around me. It's not their fault. I am fully aware it's my own fault, I didn't keep my focus and self control. I still had figured I'd gained maybe only 5 or 6 lbs, considering I was active a lot. Boy was I wrong. When I stepped on a scale for the first time in 2 months, I had gained 14 lbs!! That was nearly half of what I had worked so hard to lose! This was half of what motivated me to get back on program.
The other half was more emotional. Since I had moved, I didn't take much with me, and brought only some of my clothes. Now that I've been working, I wanted to buy more clothes. Well, I couldn't find any clothes that fit me. I even desperately tried to squeeze into a pair of jeans that were so tight I walked like a penguin. (My uncle still laughs at me about that!)
I can't take it any more. I HAVE to lose this weight. Not to impress a man, or look good in a pair of jeans instead of walking like a penguin in them, but for me. I'm unhappy and self concious, and I don't want to be.
I'm using the Weight Watchers diet again. This time around I decided to journal my journey, hoping maybe tgo inspire others to go for what they want in life. Not just weight losses, but many things.
Check back often, I'll try to update at least once a week, and I hope to include pictures.
I'll leave you all with a little motto that Weight Watchers has taught me:
If you always do what you always do, you'll always get what you always got
Wish me luck....
(P.S. This is also in my Bio!) |
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